Birthday: I’m glad to be alive, but painful celebrations without my mother – Hon Matthew Ochada [HMO]

My heart is clogged with gratitude oh God for Your profound love, that’s vast beyond measure, and You bestowed on me another year of deep happiness coupled with genuine elevations. I return the glory to you Everlasting Father. 🙌

Today is the first birthday that my Mum didn’t wake me up with singing, prayers and praises to God, either in my face or into the phone. I kind of spent this early morning staring at my phone waiting for her call, but the silence is….deafening. I think it hit me today that she’s really gone, and that I’m really alone. 😭

Sure, I’m glad to be alive, but you see, celebrations without my mother around can be so painful. She had a special way of making you feel so unique, so loved, and so celebrated. Truth is, she did this every day, not just birthdays.

She has been gone above two months now but it hurts as much as the day it happened. Every day I think about it. It haunts my existence. It makes me sad, and makes me cry like I’ve never cried before.

Even though my Mum is no longer here physically, I know she’s always with me now, by my side and in my heart. I feel her every day. Probably now more than ever.

So as I turn another year older today, I can hear her singing to me. I can hear her celebrating with me. I can hear her cheering me on.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME, and I love you Mum. Every day, more and more.

  • Hon Matthew Ochada [HMO]

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